Rest in peace, Robin Williams.

He made everyone so happy and he could not make himself happy is what everyone is saying… This is the mode of passion. And suicide is the mode of ignorance. Only when you can keep yourself in the mode of goodness can you begin to satisfy yourself. I wish he would have known this because it didnt have to end this way.. Q_Q Deeply deeply pained by this sad news. I’m going to miss him..

On Robin Williams and the Modes

Robin Williams has died and they think its suicide.. Depression. Disease of the mind. “One must deliver himself with the help of the mind and not degrade himself. The mind is the friend of the conditioned soul, and his enemy as well.” - Bhagavad Gita 6.5

I’m feeling very very sad for him and the world. All his pain and suffering and he made everyone so happy and full of joy, but could not please or satisfy himself. Its classic life in the mode of passion and it pains me to see that he went this way… into this end in ignorance…

Only in the mode of goodness can one begin to satisfy and please oneself.

In passion, all your activities please everyone else, but never yourself…

In ignorance, your activities please no one, not even yourself…

The Process and Struggles of Bhakti: The Third Stage

The third stage of bhakti yoga is called Bhajana-Kirya or simple Practice

Its comes when you have taken guidance from qualified devotees and you begin to practice. According to Vraja Kishor in “To Dance in the Downpour of Devotion” which is almost a direct translation of Madurya Kadambini by Visvanatha Chakravart Thakur, this stage of Practice has six stages within it. I refer to five of them below as those are the ones I have experienced. I also give the sanskrit terms.

Below I share a little of how the experience has been thus far in hopes that if anyone else is experiencing this they will be encouraged to learn from my experience and do better than I did through this somewhat dark time for me.

Yesterday, I learned something wonderful. I was reading Transcendental Psychology and I read something very strange: that coming to the realization that we actually HATE Krishna (or God if you prefer) and want his position is the beginning of “purification,” the fourth stage of Bhakti yoga. My friends, I never understood how that could be somehow part of a more advanced stage, but I now could not be more happy to read it. Passing through initial enthusiasm (utsaha-mayi) through mood swings (ghana-tarala) and indecision (vyudha-vikalpa) and struggles with wanting to be the subject of all pleasure (visaya-sangara) and now struggling to practice more seriously and humbly (Niyamaksama) has been like an uphill battle and I felt like most of the time I was moving backwards, but I finally can see that this is actually part (a well-documented part) of the process towards pure love of god. I literally thought I would never ever take initiation (because I felt so incapable), but now I see how close this has all brought me and again I think there may be some hope for me yet to move forward. What a relief this has been.

Revolution of Consciousness - Start with yourself!

Front page of the New York Times: War, Sanctions, War, Destruction, More Destruction over here, Ashes, and Desolation. The people of the world who are most affected by this will undoubtedly feel very desperate now. Much worse things to come undoubtedly.. Time for a revolution of consciousness, time for a new system.

Stop the consciousness of violence by stopping the killing you do - eating meat. You are what you consume - Dead meat and violence. Violence reaps Violence.

Stop the consciousness of exploitation by not exploiting others for our needs. Get what you need from the Ultimate Source and stop trying to take it from those (i.e. everyone else) who cannot give what is really not theirs.

Stop the consciousness of possession and understand everything you have was given to you and you can only borrow it until you are forced by death to give it away. 

Stop the consciousness of cheating. Live honestly and sincerely.

And most importantly, stop the consciousness of apathy by softening your heart with the force of divine love - the only force to melt the iron cage around our heart that keeps it from saving and helping others.

Its time for a revolution of consciousness. 

As HDG always says, the next big movement will be against speciesism.

"If you befriend it, it’s a friend. If you raise it for food, it’s food," he says in a 2002 essay, hilariously titled "Wok the Dog." "This relativism is more dangerous than the absolutism of vegetarians or even of thoughtful carnivores….you’re saying that the morality of killing depends on habit or even whim."

"If we think dog shouldn’t be eaten — like, ever, regardless of how clean the trade is and how quick the kill — then maybe we should think about the other animals we eat, and if and why we don’t feel the same way about them. Is it because we spend so much time with dogs — looking into their eyes, talking to them, walking them, picking up their crap — that we understand that they are living, breathing, feeling beings? Would we feel that way about other animals if we could hang out more? Or would the beak-y, frowny face of the chicken still stop us short of empathy?"